Yeah, that’s me. Clearly frustrated.
I have this feeling within, this inability to accept settling for a life of comfort and predictability and—shall I say—normalcy?
When I look around and see perfectly content people, I think to myself how I could never be that way. I have a calling that transcends a good, simple life.
The problem is wondering how I get from where I am to realizing that vision. Right now I’m in a trap — stuck in a small town working for someone who is crazy and pays well. The ultimate double-edged sword.
How does someone with a minimal education and experience in mainstream circles accomplish something great and grand? If you look at Obama’s life you get this strong sense of fate and destiny and grand purpose. He went to all the right schools, got the right focus, waited to have a family at the right time.
You look at me and it’s all backwards…but how much does that really matter? But it’s not I’m trying to be the President, right?
Another fear I have is the fear of feeling so depressed and beat down that I run out of feeling. Run out of causes to believe in, out of ideas to flourish and bring to life. Just another nobody.
I’m very interested in the power of intent and how strong it can be in setting the direction and scene of one’s life. Let’s say I intend, purely, to live a life of greatness and meaning, but I look around me and my life is anything but that. Will my intent get me through to the other side?
What do I need to do? What’s the secret?