I’m not very close with this man.
He’s not the man I ever wanted to become. His consistent let downs make me feel for him but since he’s my dad I end up getting resentful because it feels like a direct insult on my ability as a father for life.
I know he knows what’s wrong but like peanut butter he just wants to spread across the surface and pretend everything is yummy. It’s never, ever yummy.
In fact it’s so hard not to get angry and verbally violent that I have to keep a near-severed attitude towards the whole thing. I leave a thread open not because I ever believe things will evolve but because if I didn’t, I’d be just as bad as him.